Oh man I feel like each passing day before delivery makes me more and more anxious. I get so scared about taking care of another but also so much excitement to see Ro with her baby brother too. It's all so overwhelming and I am so done being pregnant but also so terrified to have two so I can hold out longer as well. It is just all so bittersweet and I feel so dramatic about it (probably because of pregnancy/hormones) but the things that help me the most is thinking of how close I have of a relationship with my older brother Jordan and how I loved growing up close in age to my brothers. Three of us were even all in high school together.
Well my fingers, feet and face are all beginning to swell, it is so hard to sleep at night and so I am extra tired, and I have been feeling extra pressure, cramping, and lightening for the past four days. It was strongest on February 1st through the 2nd but then went away. I think this is due to the foot massage I received that day so I am tempted to go again today but also so terrified that I don't know if I am ready to fully induce labor either. It's all just so surreal and I am soaking up every moment with Ro and trying to give her lots of attention so she feels loved. I feel like for the most part I am so excited for all the changes and to dream of cuddling a newborn again but then sometimes I get sad thinking it won't just be Ro and I anymore. And let me tell you, she is quite the ultimate cuddler so I feel like I haven't missed the newborn stage or anything with her. We have taken each day as they come and she is just too fun right now. Of course every stage has its positives and negatives, but I have truly enjoyed each and every single one with her and can only pray I feel the same way when her brother comes. She is just the epitome of a perfect child and sure she can throw tantrums and gets upset, but she is so sweet, doesn't fight with others, so good at sharing, loves to cuddle, doesn't fight naps or bedtime, sleeps so well, plays independently after receiving a proper amount of attention, and I looooooove how much of a Mama's girl she is. I am excited/nervous for all the changes but I will say I get an overwhelming feeling that it will be okay and this baby was given to us from God. I know we are having a boy for a reason we don't know yet and that we got pregnant when we did. I need to trust the Lord more and rely more on Thee during this very transitional time. Here's to hoping and praying for a sweet, healthy boy and an uneventful delivery!
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