Sometimes I let worry get in the way. I know we will have our days or weeks or months where you won't be very fond of me. I know this because most teenagers feel this way at some point about their parents, however I do pray we can surpass that (I know, maybe not the most realistic). But it is hard to imagine with how we bond now that that can even change. We are beyond obsessed with each other and I love how much you love me. It sometimes makes Daddy mad because you favor me with evvvvvverything but I think I was blessed to have you be that way because I was so scared to have a daughter. I was so scared mainly because of the possibility of you hating me and while that may be short lived later on, I truly feel like I was blessed with how much you love me right now. I know it eased all of my fears of being a Mom.
Now we are at the point where within 2ish weeks or less you will become a big sister. I've never really experienced anxiety before but oh my goodness how this has thrown me for a loop. I worry constantly if our bond will still be the same, how best I can still suit your needs, how to maintain our relationship so we always feel this way about each other, etc. etc. I feel like these past few months we have really figured each other out and the tantrums are greatly decreased, we have so much fun, and you play so well independently too! I feel like we're each others best friends and you love to laugh along with me and play with me all day long. It really is the BEST confidence booster! I hope and pray so badly that we are able to transition into becoming a family of 4 as smoothly as possible but I mostly worry about you and how you will react and "starting over" essentially with taking care of another baby. You have become so easy and while all of it has been enjoyable, I am still terrified for another addition and what that means for us and my time more split:( You do love to lift my shirt and kiss and cuddle the baby and seem so excited about it so let's hope that excitement continues! It's been so fun to watch you become so motherly even with your stuffed "Panda" that you insist on taking everywhere. You take him to the potty, change his bum, feed him, etc so I hope that means we are both nearing ready for another! I have been so extremely blessed by you and your spirit. You hug/cuddle me when I am sick or being prodded at the doctor, fit in cuddles all day long on the couch with me, and are just the sweetest of sweet. There's really no other way to describe it and I feel so blessed to be in your presence. I know you will continue to teach me so many things as we have you in our home and I pray that I can continue to be patient with you and that you can look back on your childhood fondly. I hope our bond remains the same and that we will always have a very close mother-daughter relationship. I love you my sweet girl!!!
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