Sometimes I let worry get in the way. I know we will have our days or weeks or months where you won't be very fond of me. I know this because most teenagers feel this way at some point about their parents, however I do pray we can surpass that (I know, maybe not the most realistic). But it is hard to imagine with how we bond now that that can even change. We are beyond obsessed with each other and I love how much you love me. It sometimes makes Daddy mad because you favor me with evvvvvverything but I think I was blessed to have you be that way because I was so scared to have a daughter. I was so scared mainly because of the possibility of you hating me and while that may be short lived later on, I truly feel like I was blessed with how much you love me right now. I know it eased all of my fears of being a Mom.
Now we are at the point where within 2ish weeks or less you will become a big sister. I've never really experienced anxiety before but oh my goodness how this has thrown me for a loop. I worry constantly if our bond will still be the same, how best I can still suit your needs, how to maintain our relationship so we always feel this way about each other, etc. etc. I feel like these past few months we have really figured each other out and the tantrums are greatly decreased, we have so much fun, and you play so well independently too! I feel like we're each others best friends and you love to laugh along with me and play with me all day long. It really is the BEST confidence booster! I hope and pray so badly that we are able to transition into becoming a family of 4 as smoothly as possible but I mostly worry about you and how you will react and "starting over" essentially with taking care of another baby. You have become so easy and while all of it has been enjoyable, I am still terrified for another addition and what that means for us and my time more split:( You do love to lift my shirt and kiss and cuddle the baby and seem so excited about it so let's hope that excitement continues! It's been so fun to watch you become so motherly even with your stuffed "Panda" that you insist on taking everywhere. You take him to the potty, change his bum, feed him, etc so I hope that means we are both nearing ready for another! I have been so extremely blessed by you and your spirit. You hug/cuddle me when I am sick or being prodded at the doctor, fit in cuddles all day long on the couch with me, and are just the sweetest of sweet. There's really no other way to describe it and I feel so blessed to be in your presence. I know you will continue to teach me so many things as we have you in our home and I pray that I can continue to be patient with you and that you can look back on your childhood fondly. I hope our bond remains the same and that we will always have a very close mother-daughter relationship. I love you my sweet girl!!!
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You just turned 2 and these are all the things I don't ever want to forget about you at this time! "Hey sweet girl" is repeated right back to me the same way, along with sweetie and sometimes "Ro, ro! You hold your hands out quite often with a where'd you go or where did that go and it is too cute! You hug and hang onto me so long and tight every night so Daddy doesn't steal you away for bed. You will then ask for another hug as you are walking up the stairs for bed and it melts me every time. You repeat love you in THE cutest way and say "buh bye" anytime you are going to another room followed by an I love you after we say it. You repeat this silent open mouth laugh that is mostly forced! haha. You learned what "treats" are and get sooo excited. You especially love ice cream and ANY chocolate candy! You absolutely love music and to dance and ask for "happy song" (if you're happy and you know it) and "rosies" (ring around the rosies) daily. You have such a drive to learn and looooove learning all the things. You can count 1,2,3, and 8,9,10 in order and know every color but orange. You are learning your abc's and know heart, star, moon, and circle for shapes. You are beyond obsessed with buckles of any kind on anything and will sometimes hang out in the car just so you can re-buckle your car seat over and over well after I have gone inside from an errand. You are always beyond excited to see me after your naps and come running to me and it absolutely melts me. You nap from 1:30/2-3:30/4 for an average of 2 hours each day. You are so good about hanging out in your crib until we come get you and are so content playing with Panda and laying down for awhile. You love berries especially raspberries, avocados, toast, cereal, and chocolateeeeeeeeeee! You love to be around friends especially girls your age and love a good park date! You are very observant and sensitive and get very upset if we tell you you shouldn't do something. It breaks our hearts. You truly are the absolute light of our lives and we feel beyond blessed that your are ours. Oh how thankful we are!!!
21 months: Time has not been on our side as you have grown leaps and bounds over the last year. You have such a strong will to do good and anytime you are doing something questionable you look over to see if it is okay. You are so good at folding your arms and saying AMEN very loudly and so cute, especially when we are in sacrament and it is a little delayed haha. You love to play and absolutely love when we are playing truly with you. Books are still your favorite thing and we probably have way too many but it is just too fun to see how much you love them and learn from them. You started to care what is on your clothes and love anything with animals or cheetah print on them. You even walked up to a stranger in a cafe the other day to show her you have kitties on your shirt. Shasta is still your favorite cat and you have learned to be a lot more gentler with them. You ask for Shasta often and want to know her whereabouts, especially when you wake up in the morning. You are still 1000% a Mama's girl and it makes me so happy. You love Daddy too but are obsessed with me; the feeling is mutual. You love to do anything I am doing and love to try on shoes, put on makeup, open allllll the lip glosses, carry purses, and push your cart around. You get excited when you know we are going to put you in a cart even if you don't last too long. You love to listen to a "show" in the car and can do the motions to wheels on a bus, itsy bitsy spider, Mr. Sun, baby shark, can sing ba ba black sheep, and rock a bye baby. You are learning soooo many words and are just starting to learn colors (you have blue down!) and love to learn. You love your baby and real babies, stuffed animals of all kinds, and a "blanky" to go night night with. I stopped nursing you at 20 months and never thought I would go that long but you continued to want to so we did :) I had to stop at 20 months due to sensitive breasts from pregnancy. So now we sing 2-3 primary songs especially I am a child of God and you go in your crib and lay down to sleep. It is never a fight to put you down but you started to always say you are hungry before bedtime so we oblige so you aren't hungry. Sometimes Daddy thinks you are playing a game with us though. You wake up between 8-9am, nap from 1:30-2 til about 4-4:30 depending on how tired you are (about a 2-2.5 hour nap each day) and then you go to bed between 8:30-9. You still stick your legs out the side of the crib instead of staying parallel with it so we started to turn you so you don't get stuck. You have become a very picky eater and will maybe take 1-2 bites of each thing. It's hard but your favorites are literally anything new or that you haven't had in awhile. Everyone comments how pretty and sweet you are and I have to say you are still pretty dang sweet. Some friends have bit or hit you and you just kind of look at them like why did you do that? You have a very calm spirit but also love to play, especially outside, in a bounce house, or anywhere with friends. Dancing has come so naturally to you and I can't wait to see if you like dance classes. I get worried how you will handle having a baby brother coming soon but something tells me you will love him too. That's been the most helpful for me to think of having another child because I know you will have someone to play with and eventually (hopefully) a lifelong best friend. I was bummed it wasn't a girl so you could have a sister close in age or at all like I never did but I know we are being sent him for a reason. You weigh 28.4 lbs currently and are still very tall for your age as many people think you are older. Your hair started to finally grow and it is a beautiful sandy blonde that looks extra blonde in the sun. You are absolutely my little bestie and it is so fun to do evvvverything together and have so much one on one time. I know I will miss it so bad when we have baby brother too but we will have to start doing mommy daughter and daddy daughter play dates. I love you so so much, even when the tantrums are hard but I have found the best way to get you out of them is to get on your level and ask what's wrong. Sometimes that doesn't work when you are really upset but I can tell you either usually need food, attention, or something out of reason that might not make too much sense. You are still the epitome to me of a perfect child though and it has been an absolute joy to watch you thrive and learn, become social, see your personality shine through and see the things you are interested in. I would do anything in this world for you and hope more than anything that you will be happy and can look back on your childhood and parents fondly. We are trying our absolute very best and continually pray and ask that we are doing just that.
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